remembering Titanic ...

what reminds us when we think of titanic......ship of dreams, love and many more......but there are many tales of bravery, sacrifice and heroism..most of these actions though has been shown in the movie..hardly anybody remembers the sacrifices....these are not just stories but real incidents that happened on that fatefull night..as said by few of the survivors.

engine room crew, nobody in the crew thought of getting away as the ship was sinking..these men struggled and kept the power and lights running as long as possible......

Officers ..many of them stayed on the deck to load and launch the lifeboats..they made sure all the boats are safely away....

wireless operators....captain Smith visited the wirelss room one last time and he said that they could abandon their post now....he said "Its now every man for himself, boys "....they stayed back trying desperately to send distress signals

these peoples risked their lives so that others might have a better chance of survival...they were a part of ship crew and they felt it was their duty to do so....they held on to their job and duties till their last breath....

most inspired story for me when i read about all the valliant efforts of people on board was of the Titanic Band...they were not a part of ship crew and they were not needed to keep the power running or load life boats....yet they stayed in the ship till the very end ..playing light, airy music to keep passengers calm when available lifeboats are loaded...as it is seen in the movie..the band played even when the ship turned on her nose and was sinking...a survivor says he cannot imagine how they ever able to play band at that time..
their efforts might not have saved many lives as other rescue workers did....but they made final moments of many lives ...less tragic by their soothing music ...it is believed that they played the below music though some survivors say it was a different song....

Nearer, my God, to Thee, nearer to Thee!
E’en though it be a cross that raiseth me,
Still all my song shall be, nearer, my God, to Thee.

Refrain
Nearer, my God, to Thee,
Nearer to Thee!

Though like the wanderer, the sun gone down,
Darkness be over me, my rest a stone.
Yet in my dreams I’d be nearer, my God to Thee.

and there are countless accounts of newly wed husbands, men and old men agreeing to give up thier places for women and childrens.....

"Greater love has no one than this, that one lay down his life for his friends." John 15

i would like to remember titanic for all the love and memories of these brave men ......and definetly not for love between jack and rose............

Come december.........

its that time of the year when you feel chill in the air and you know that the festival time is there..start december, plans have already started in my family for our christmas celebration, after 2 long years my elder brother will be there as well and my parents would travel to chennai for xmas...

ok ..i was out of station for almost 15 days on an official work and very happy to be back in my place now. really dont want to travel anymore till new year....lets see. i went to my church today and found that there is a carol rounds visit to my house on this week, hmm...it would be a great feeling singing all good old christmas song with spirit and joy, and today i started decorating my house for christmas, christmas tree is already in place...with cereal lights, christmas bells, snow flakes formation over the trees(nothing but cotton spread over the tree)...and in the coming weeks would be looking to decorate my tree more...

Evening, went for shopping and got my fridge stuffed with usual food items, it would be only noodles, corn flakes, egg and some choclates...nothing more, i lost all interest in cooking vegetables and now looking for only ready made foods. As it is a practise before any christmas, there are some serious shopping to be done in the coming weeks, a very difficult one..furnishing my house...

Its been a long time since i had a hang out with my friends and couldnt meet anyone yet since coming back to chennai ...when we meet there would be lot of things to discuss..probably would go out for a night show and discuss things in my place...

ok i am going to cook some stuff for my dinner now...watch a movie probably and sleep.....

Continous learning...and a record miss

..Saturday night and i am sitting alone in my flat and writing this post. its been 2 weeks since i wrote anything here..

about my new company and job, i am told many things already to study and research, career has reached a new level where i have to work on high end techniques of multiple technologies and multiple platform. expectations are really high..well..my past experience is definitely helping me..

i managed to take a day off and attend one of my close friend marriage, it was in my native and she was very happy, being there in one of your friends important event of life will make anybody happy..she is pretty close to me and i realise now that after her marriage i wouldnt be able to keep in otuch with her as much as i did before...

my parents were not there in my native and i visited few of my relatives house, most of them are retired persons and i spent a considerable time with each of them as it was more than 2 years since i met them..and i had lunch in my cousine's house, her house is just opposite to my house and my dad had already called her up and asked her to take care of me....well she is about my same age and we are good friends...i did miss to meet one person in my native thats our house servant, i had always managed to meet her when i go home, and few times when she was sick i used to go to her house and visit..it is been a routine since my college that i always go to my native once in 4-5 months...so my next visit would be some where in mid 2008...goodbye madurai..

...i had subbu and few of my old colleagues from fresher batch visiting my place and we went to a falls near chennai...its a place called konnai falls in andhra pradesh..and by the time we returned to chennai..it was rain rain rain ......

well i will come to a crazy record miss, it was on thursday when jegu and thangaraj came to my flat. in my previous company i am an undeclared champion of mokkai..mokkai is a term that is commonly used these days, for a person who speaks on any topics to any person non stop..and it is again very important that the topic should not in any way interest those who are listening to them..... jegu i consider is a runner up to my position...so just imagine when we meet. it started in bed and we kept talking talking talking ..and finally jegu gave up and slept...and i was still talking...and it was 3.30...yes it was a record miss, me and subbu are joint holders of a record..we spoke non stop till 5.00 in the morning once...

jegu has just come to my place, he has got dinner to me also, after finishing that we would watch a movie and sleep .........

still missing .......

the week started well, joined my new company and went through the usual procedures, the HR Manager had an presentation about the organisation and i should say he did extremely well, after this came a bit of shock..i was told that i would be given training on all software concepts for a week... most of them not related to my work profile...may be it would be useful to developers,testers and project manager...i tried my best to get involved in training and then just left it ..i was just going through the day ...

i did missed my friends in my old company a lot, so i decided to give them a visit, as expected subbu was in tea shop and i gave him a pleasant surprise ....then there were other bunch of guys...jegu ..a very busy person nowadays but still always takes time for me ,,,,thangs,shomik... who came down and we exchanged pleasantries. me and subbu went for a drink and discussed the usual politics and other develpments in hexaware..

there was another important incident that happened this week, neeraj...left the company for a better opportunity...though neeraj was not directly reporting to me ....till the day he left hexaware(even after i had left hexaware) he gave me the respect of team leader, even this week i had asked him to look after a producton issue that shomik was not able to solve alone and i was not able to look into it..he was busy with his relieving formalitites and still he took time and solved the issue...though he is my junior i spoke to him whenever i had issues with my manager and he always came with good suggestions..this guy is really matured compared to other guys in his batch...i still remember the advice he gave me in car on our way to airport ....i was returing from mumbai after taking the handover from him...he had left our project 6 month back...

me,neeraj and sugesh worked as a team...the relationship we had between us is more than just a team member....we are known for not sleeping on any open issues and there are numerous issues that we worked as a team and solved.....in my short final address to the project ..all i told was any credit i recieved should be dedicated to neeraj,sugesh,deepa and of course my manager. It is hard to relaise now that we tried our best and always gave more than 100% for the company and still me,neeraj and sugesh had a bad experience that forced us to look for better opportunities..nobody stayed in hexaware...anyways we didnt do anything for charity and this is very common in IT organisation ...

i also missed one more guy..Shomik..the person who has taken my roles in hexaware,....though i have not worked with him much he is an exciting talent ..and often by mistake i called him neeraj... he is feeling very happy now that he is getting so much challenging tasks...even i felt happy for him as i had selected this guy from a bunch of freshers, when my manger had asked to identify a capable resource for DBA.....

ok its saturday night and i am sitting alone in my flat and writing this post...really boring ..still sometimes i enjoy loneliness.......

out of hexaware .......

..i Started writing in this blog to record important moments and memories i had in my work place, after my resignation i was not my usual self, many people noticed that and told me, especially there were 2 senior managers i went to meet the day before my last day, both of them were shocked and told me that i am looking really sick and unhealthy.my usual smile was no more there and slowly many people kept telling me that i am dull.

so what is this all about, basically i am a person with little sentiments,and seperation from friends and colleagues is another thing which happened regularly for me, i have switched 4 companies now in my 5 years of experience....still there is some kind of bond tht i have developed here in hexaware and it was a pain for me to seperate from this bunch of guys. words didnt come to me on my final address to the group and i choked, most people felt i cried though i never cried, not that kind definetly...

there were 2 more persons who got relieved on the same day, prabha and rohini....prabha...she is one girl i know for sure who still reads my boring posts here and kept asking me to write more, i still dont really know what is it in my post that she likes a lot, i become sort of good friend to her recently..and even she felt great about my friendship with her.

so there was usual praises from managers, project leads about our work. one thing that people told in common was i was always calm and ever smiling. and everbvody wished me for my new assignments.......glory be to god...

there are few people i know will miss me for sure, my close friends for i gave very good company to them and i spent most part of my time with them for the past one year..there was another close friend of mine, as i expected she cried as i bid farewell to her, i dont have any friend who had cried for me til this time....ok.. so this is the group i am going to miss in the days to come...i was so attached to them in recent days....

almost a week since i left hexaware, and next week i will be joining my new company...